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Once Again… I Forgot

Once again, history repeats itself.

And I forgot.

Forgot to write, forgot to update, forgot to even show up.

But here I am.

Hi, I’m Sahaneeya, a 20-something med student barely making it through the days, one mental breakdown at a time.

To be honest, it's not just laziness (although that definitely plays a part). I’ve run out of content ideas, for both the blog and my Instagram. My brain’s been blank, my camera roll is dry, and motivation? Somewhere lost in my anatomy notes.

Oh! But did I mention?

We hit 300K+ views on the blog!

Cue confetti

That’s a huge milestone and honestly, thank you for being here, reading, lurking, commenting, sharing, all of it.

If you want to check out my content (shameless plug):

📖 @paged.diaries for all things books

🩺 @caffeine_coat for med school chaos and existential rants

But the weird part?

I don’t feel any different.

I thought I'd be over the moon, floating in some kind of surreal blogosphere joy… but no. Life still feels painfully normal. The only real upgrade is that I’m now drowning in ARCs and review copies sent by lovely authors, which, not gonna lie, is kind of a dream come true.

And yet, some days, I catch myself wondering... Why am I even doing this?

Reading, blogging, medicine, the things I once loved. The things I chose to chase. I remember desperately wanting to become a doctor, pouring my soul into this blog, falling in love with books and stories all over again.

But now?

When it becomes a task, a duty, something I have to do… it loses its charm.

It turns into a chore.

It’s not that I don’t love learning about new diseases or having a heartfelt conversation with a patient. I do. I really do.

But the moment it’s expected of me, the joy fades.

Maybe it’s burnout. Maybe it’s pressure. Maybe it’s just life.

I don’t have a solution. This post isn’t a motivational comeback or a “10 ways to fall in love with your goals again” kind of piece.

It’s just a check-in.

A “hey, I’m still here”

A reminder to myself that it’s okay to lose the spark, as long as you’re willing to look for it again.

So if you’re feeling the same, stuck between what you wanted and what you have to do,  know that you’re not alone.

We'll find our rhythm again. Even if it’s offbeat for now.

Until next time (hopefully sooner, not three months later),

Sahaneeya

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