Day 13: Ali Abdaal would be disappointed

As is already established—I love Ali Abdaal’s videos. Do I listen to them religiously? Yes. Do I follow his advice? Questionable.

I’m in that group that watches productivity gurus and “how to get your life together” videos like my life depends on it. My lectures are probably jealous. But have I ever really acted on any of it? Not really.

I’ve started multiple Instagram pages, multiple blogs—but I never stick with them. I treat them like little projects I pick up when I’m bored and drop the moment anything else comes up. Even now, I’m fully ready to drop everything at a minute’s notice.

Exhibit A: I’m still not done with the 30 Days in Scrubs challenge. And worse, I use my failure to keep up with it as an excuse not to continue at all.

I try to convince myself that I don’t care what others think—that I’m my own person, doing what I need to do to get where I want to be. But then, why do I hesitate to tell people about my blog or Instagram? Why do I take every little comment—or joke—to heart? Why do I second guess every single post?

Every time I start, I think, this time will be different. But… never mind.

Still, maybe this comeback is going to be different.